Some days, I really forget what it is to be a super mom. I just do not want to get out of bed or hear a sound. Hours and hours of silence and rest. As if it could change a thing.
Today is one of those days. So I have to get up as soon as I can, while Bade sleeps – so I can have some time for myself to get over it. But it only lasts half an hour. Because Bade -who normally sleeps until at least 09.30 – senses it somehow and runs to jump into my arms. My beloved little monster. And she turns me into the super mom with just a sleepy smile. As always.
The thing about being the mother of a mini diabetic is that it gives you super powers. I consider super power getting up three times at night to check your child’s blood sugar, or having to prick her small fingers at least 10 times a day and still being able to smile, or never being able to oversleep because you might wake up to find her in a coma and still feeling so energetic. This disease, is actually both a curse and a blessing. It’s a curse, because you know it will be there for a lifetime and you have to live with it no matter what the cost. It’s a blessing because it makes you so unbelievaby damn strong.
You see, before diabetes I used to be a completely different person. I used to sulk and care too much about other people’s opinions and deeds. The thoughts like “X is extremely jealous of me and is gossiping about me” or “Y pretended to be my friend and betrayed me” or “Z doesn’t seem happy -what have I done upset her?” are suddenly gone. For all I know X could continue her miserable lonely life with someone else to gossip about, Y would always find another one to betray and Z can start a universal haters club dedicated to my name and I still wouldn’t give a damn. A health issue does certainly change your priorities in life. But I am not complaining at all, I’ve been in the hospitals enough to see there are worse things in life. Yet believe me, there are even worse things. To be deprived of true and selfless love, that is the real tragedy of life! So, be happy if you have someone you love more than yourself and simply smile because you have the luxury to breathe on this day just because you are able to feel it and its worth it all.
I’ve been meaning to make biscuits for quite some time. This recipe turned out to be exactly how I wanted it to be. Chewy. Easy, few ingredients. Dip in your tea/coffee and smile while eating.
Next time, I am going to add some coffee beans inside. They turned sligtly soft the next day but Bade did not care, she ate them all anyway. So no heating up was needed.
I always say, the worst thing about eating real food is that it never lasts the day after. I suggest you measure up smartly and only bake for the day.
Grain free Walnut Biscuits
Prep Time : 15-20 min
Cook Time: 20 min
Serves: 20-25 biscuits
100 gr walnut kernels(1 cup)
50 gr (around 2/3 cup) unsweetened shredded coconut
10 dates (10 x 8-9 gr)
1-Set the oven to 150C.
2-Soak the dates in warm water for 15 min, pit when softened. pulse into a puree in your food processor.
3-Add coconut and dates as well, pulse until a rather firm dough forms.
4- Tear walnut sized pieces. Wetting your hands occasionally will be helpful. Shape them into small squares and line on a parchment lined baking sheet.
5-Make small holes on top with a toothpick.
6-Bake for 20 min. Remove, cool, serve.